Sampli Ghai.... End of the Hurrying

किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई...
ऑफिस मधून घरी यायची
आता हळहळ मूळी उरली नाही...




जड झालंय पुढे पाहणं
कुठेय चाललोय कळत नाही...
पावलांना ह्या पुढे पाऊल
टाकायचे भान उरले नाही...




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई...
भेडसावणारे वादळी विचार
आणि अश्रूंचाही पूर उरला नाही...




भटकत होतो आम्ही सगळे
तुझ्या हास्याचीच होती नवलाई...
जरी कधी वैतागलो सगळ्याला
तुझ्या मिठीत घ्यायचो तजेली अंगडाई...




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठेय गेली सगळी घाई...
स्वप्न आपली सगळी अडकून पडली
रोखून राहिलो आहोत आम्ही श्वास काही...




जीवनाच्या ह्या चक्राचा
बिंदूच जणू सापडत नाही...
आणि स्तब्ध अश्या ह्या अवस्थेत
तूझ्हीच आस लागून राहिली आहे आई..




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई ......


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Lighted Corner

Lighted Corner..

In a copious corner of my clutterred life

there spreads a luminous sacred light

therz this space tucked away hidden

screened n shrouded by my perfect smiles.

Here lies bleeding all my pain

reborne from sweetness time and again

from the gamut of billion memories

some lost voices and some reveries

walking amongst the sea of bustling souls

amongst known faces yet strange undertones

i keep moving in an android trance

tripping on paths known... yet peculiar zones

thriving admist a matrix of psuedo emotions
of depleting love and borrowed devotions
in the ever increasing surrounded dismay
to my lighted sacred corner... i return to pray


its here i feel the unsurpassable love
of familiar warmth lost in fatal blow
bathing me with unfeigned care
and here all my ghosts i bare...


its here...
all my ghosts i bare.

My Shade..missin U ever more on Mothers' day.

My Shade

I was Frolicking in the sun

prancing in the crazy maze

twirling in my pretty skirt

dancing in my dreamy haze..

Caught up in d spinning whirl

hopping in material grinds

spiralling down the hollows

of empty emotional rinds...

Never did i believe

thou i think,i heard a bell

thought it was a dream

flashing someone elsez tale...

I knew her to be here

always following like my shadow

but little did i know,

she would rise to be my halo...

Wrapping me in her love

smothering all i fear

she turned into my Shade

enveloping her baby dear...

forever....

Enveloping her baby dear............

I never knew real LOSS before.. fleeting love was wat i kept grieving over.... while the whole time i was losing the one dearest to me.. The one Loss which can never be replaced..coloussal...fathomless pit of aching desire to reach ... My Mom.

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Astitva..Existence

अस्तित्व
  

आला पाउस अंगणी
मन वेडे पिसे झले
त्या सख्याला भेटायला
पाय धावूनच गेले
  
रीम्झ्हीम्त्या त्याच्या सरीन्थ
अंग चिंब चिंब झाले
त्याच्या स्पर्चाच्या आठवनिन्थ
मन रोमांचात न्हाले
  
थेंब थेंब जैसा पडला
जीव बेधुंध हा झाला
प्रत्येक क्षणाला कसा तो
स्तब्ध रोखुनी राहिला
  
ओल्या चिंब ह्या देही
कापरा थंडीचा भरला
स्मरताच तुझ्हे ते ..श्वास
त्यांच्या उबेत तो हि गुदमरला
  
मी स्वताच मला
गच्च मिठीत घेतले
तरी देखील लाजेने
डोळ्यांचे पापणे चटकन मिटले


असे आहे रे तुझ्हे अस्तित्व
माझ्या कणाकणात वसलेले
तुझ्या वाचून कसे राहील रे

माझ्हे   जीवन  रंगलेले...

Aai..

Aai ...

As little joys fill my day..

I carry her happiness

on my lips ... as i smile..

As life unfold its crazy ways..
I dwell in her cheerful spirit
in my soul ... as i breathe...

As tears well up in little pools..
 I try to drain away her pain
on my cheeks ... as i cry..

As fears cloud my precious dreams
I feel her strong beliefs
pushing me up... as i stand..

As demons hold my mind at stake

I wear all her blessings

to gaurd my spirits... as i fight...

Its only one her ..
and for her its one me..
the 9 months long passed
but the womb yet ...surrounds me..


Little did i know i should let her read this  and be assured that she is treasured..My shyness kept me from feeding on her beautiful expressions and delight which would have emoted after reading this..too late to regret now...I know she heard me read this alone in the dark whereever she is... i never cease missing you Aai.

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Its Coming..

   



 IT's Coming...

When your whole world centers around jus one particular person, special and dear to you, nothing elze manages to get a moments hold of your thoughts.And then sometimes, the things just change,fade out with the light of the setting sun...you have done it all!You ve struggled and fought and denied and cried...and then at the end... some last straw of events puts things in perspective and your battle with yourself is OVER...thena melancholy wait begins...


 

Sitting at the edge
waiting for the dawn break
stretching at the shores
watching the horizons fade
Another day goes
swallowing my hollows
Nothing that rattles now
Now...
happiness will follow... :)
Just...Happiness will follow!!






Sunset at Chamundi Hills, Mysore.KA

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An Ode to JJ Campus

I found this one in my system...a decade old or more.. like 1997 :)))
I used to be smitten by the JJ campus in the rains then.. it was soo uber calming...
see if u can feel it in ur memory too reading this...:)

I can feel it...

The ever desired freshness of the cool breeze
Blowing over the moist dew cladden trees

I inhale breathlessly..

The sweetness of the scorched earth

When the rain showers down upon her berth

I listen earnestly ..

The inquisitiveness in the rustling of the leaves

as the wind whispers amongst the dancing trees

Quickly , i freezee..

In a struggle to hold the moment still

To seek the silent bliss

To walk  barefooted on the soft wet lawn

Blades of grass as smooth as velvet drawn

I tread on gently..wishing to be light footed

Least i damage the tender blades

I go on lost, all alone, a loner

And find myself a secluded corner...

Its then that i  hear them all,

Hundreds or thousands of them call

All of them tiny souls come to life

Or would it be right to say

That Here I become alive

To all those inconspicuous beauties

Always nestling unnoticed in J.J's Ravines..

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