Heal me

Tearing away the binding feelings
Shutting down my bleeding thoughts
Wrapping up tighly all that remained
Burying it deep in fathomless pots

Nailing my hands as they twitch to reach you
My bleary eyes shut as they yearn to weep
Not stopping the heart as it oozes the pain
Letting it drench through my soul as it seeps

Beckoning all your silences to embrace me
Goodwill of all my prayers to bail me
Peeling away all love at it chains me
Pleading strength in loneliness to hail me
..
oh pls heal me..

Cup of Coffee

Another quite evening
feet heavyy as they lead
A coffee on my tierd mind....
I settle in a forgotten corner
Of a lovely cheerful place
Awaiting none... at a table for two..
Eyes darting around the Cafe
Entwined hands under nearby tables
Meeting lips in tucked away corners....
Mischeif hangs around some loose curls
Playful smiles frame naughty eyes
As the Coffees cool off aside...
I feel an all familiar pang
A knowing feeling overwhelmes
And i feel them sting as they Come...
The empty chair across me teases
As i sip on quietly through rising vapours
Salted rim of my Cup of Coffee....

Fleeting Warmth

A pull to the edge
A knock on woven barrier
A wall not broken down
For a fear of self burial

A desire unsaid
From a feeling not unravelled
A stirring up of an ache
At the thoughts that travelled

We all get there at times
To such places forbidden
Where the heart makes a leap
But the mind stares bedridden

If only thoughts could be read
I am sure you would see
A part of my essence 
Lingers with you more than me

Its just the way now
It feels so lovely warm
Like one of ur aura
Has wrapped my soul in its arms

There are things right
Then there are things not wrong
And then there are some things
Best lived in through a song....

I dont wish to be a rainbow 
In your faraway hazy sky
But i wish to hold a warm hand
And watch d stars shooting by....

Paraka.. Stranger

परका ..


थकलेल्या पावलांनी काल घरी जात असता

तू हळुज थेंबा थेंबात साद घालत आलास

दर वेळी तू असाच अल्गद येतोस

पण ह्या वेळी जरा वेगळाच वाटलास

कोऱ्या रिकाम्या नजरेने तुला पाहत असता
तू नकळत माझ्यावर आपुलकीने  शिंपडलास
दर वेळी मी तुला कौतुकानी ओंजळीत साठवते
पण ह्या वेळी काय सांगू तू जरा परकाच वाटलास


क्षीणलेल्या श्वासाचा सुस्कारा सोडीत असता
तू मला चिंब ओला बिलगुनी राहिलास
दर वेळी ह्याचीच तर मी वात पाहत असते
पण ह्या वेळी तरी..का जणू अलिप्तच भासलास


खरं सांगते ह्या वेळी पावसा...
तू कुणाच ठाऊक का....
पण मला वेगळाच वाटलास....


A small rendition of my affair with the falling rains when the heart is already soaked in some listless feeling of love.

Sampli Ghai.... End of the Hurrying

किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई...
ऑफिस मधून घरी यायची
आता हळहळ मूळी उरली नाही...




जड झालंय पुढे पाहणं
कुठेय चाललोय कळत नाही...
पावलांना ह्या पुढे पाऊल
टाकायचे भान उरले नाही...




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई...
भेडसावणारे वादळी विचार
आणि अश्रूंचाही पूर उरला नाही...




भटकत होतो आम्ही सगळे
तुझ्या हास्याचीच होती नवलाई...
जरी कधी वैतागलो सगळ्याला
तुझ्या मिठीत घ्यायचो तजेली अंगडाई...




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठेय गेली सगळी घाई...
स्वप्न आपली सगळी अडकून पडली
रोखून राहिलो आहोत आम्ही श्वास काही...




जीवनाच्या ह्या चक्राचा
बिंदूच जणू सापडत नाही...
आणि स्तब्ध अश्या ह्या अवस्थेत
तूझ्हीच आस लागून राहिली आहे आई..




किती सगळं शांत आहे
कुठे गेली सगळी घाई ......


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My Shade..missin U ever more on Mothers' day.

My Shade

I was Frolicking in the sun

prancing in the crazy maze

twirling in my pretty skirt

dancing in my dreamy haze..

Caught up in d spinning whirl

hopping in material grinds

spiralling down the hollows

of empty emotional rinds...

Never did i believe

thou i think,i heard a bell

thought it was a dream

flashing someone elsez tale...

I knew her to be here

always following like my shadow

but little did i know,

she would rise to be my halo...

Wrapping me in her love

smothering all i fear

she turned into my Shade

enveloping her baby dear...

forever....

Enveloping her baby dear............

I never knew real LOSS before.. fleeting love was wat i kept grieving over.... while the whole time i was losing the one dearest to me.. The one Loss which can never be replaced..coloussal...fathomless pit of aching desire to reach ... My Mom.

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Aai..

Aai ...

As little joys fill my day..

I carry her happiness

on my lips ... as i smile..

As life unfold its crazy ways..
I dwell in her cheerful spirit
in my soul ... as i breathe...

As tears well up in little pools..
 I try to drain away her pain
on my cheeks ... as i cry..

As fears cloud my precious dreams
I feel her strong beliefs
pushing me up... as i stand..

As demons hold my mind at stake

I wear all her blessings

to gaurd my spirits... as i fight...

Its only one her ..
and for her its one me..
the 9 months long passed
but the womb yet ...surrounds me..


Little did i know i should let her read this  and be assured that she is treasured..My shyness kept me from feeding on her beautiful expressions and delight which would have emoted after reading this..too late to regret now...I know she heard me read this alone in the dark whereever she is... i never cease missing you Aai.

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