Its Coming..

   



 IT's Coming...

When your whole world centers around jus one particular person, special and dear to you, nothing elze manages to get a moments hold of your thoughts.And then sometimes, the things just change,fade out with the light of the setting sun...you have done it all!You ve struggled and fought and denied and cried...and then at the end... some last straw of events puts things in perspective and your battle with yourself is OVER...thena melancholy wait begins...


 

Sitting at the edge
waiting for the dawn break
stretching at the shores
watching the horizons fade
Another day goes
swallowing my hollows
Nothing that rattles now
Now...
happiness will follow... :)
Just...Happiness will follow!!






Sunset at Chamundi Hills, Mysore.KA

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An Ode to JJ Campus

I found this one in my system...a decade old or more.. like 1997 :)))
I used to be smitten by the JJ campus in the rains then.. it was soo uber calming...
see if u can feel it in ur memory too reading this...:)

I can feel it...

The ever desired freshness of the cool breeze
Blowing over the moist dew cladden trees

I inhale breathlessly..

The sweetness of the scorched earth

When the rain showers down upon her berth

I listen earnestly ..

The inquisitiveness in the rustling of the leaves

as the wind whispers amongst the dancing trees

Quickly , i freezee..

In a struggle to hold the moment still

To seek the silent bliss

To walk  barefooted on the soft wet lawn

Blades of grass as smooth as velvet drawn

I tread on gently..wishing to be light footed

Least i damage the tender blades

I go on lost, all alone, a loner

And find myself a secluded corner...

Its then that i  hear them all,

Hundreds or thousands of them call

All of them tiny souls come to life

Or would it be right to say

That Here I become alive

To all those inconspicuous beauties

Always nestling unnoticed in J.J's Ravines..

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Mystic Canvas

The light filters inside
My enclosed room,
Through the window grills,
Emerging,
Through the Surrounding landscape,
It falls ahead of me,

On the plain, white walls, dull and drab,
And slowly!
It paints them,
With the most,
Beautiful Wallpaper known!!
Even without the colours,
Even without the fragrance,
Even without the textures,
The fluttering and dancing shadows,
Of the leaves and the branches,
Fill the room with life,
The mind with a lightness,
And the heart with a freshness,
Never felt before!!!
NATURE!
It thus seeps,
Even into the confines,
Of my room!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Waiting On

 

The days seem longer, stretching on and on
The nights even more
An endless stream of shimmering stars
I sit lost in my thoughts
Amidst the crowds
All alone I feel
Unaware of chaos all around

Words when spoken I remember you
Stories when heard I remember you
Songs when hummed I cherish you
Memories when refreshed,
Its you I remember.
Only you as clear as a mirror
Reflect on my mind.

I feel myself comparing
Realizing and becoming happier
Every second
For having a friend so sweet
But I also feel
More and more insecure
About having;.as a friend
A person so sweet as you

All said,
I think you must have understood
Just how much I miss you
Just as I have realized
And unwillingly accepted
I missed you very much.

 

Remembrances

I don't remember
The sweet pains, if you had given me any
All I remember
Is the care reflecting in your eyes.

I don't remember
The reasons why I had cried
All I remember
Is you wiping away my tears.

I don't remember the places
Which we roamed about
All I remember
Is being with you all the while?

I don't remember
If I couldn't live without you
All I remember
Is remembering you missing you all the while

Being with you and still being away
Loving you
And hating myself for loving you
All at the same time.

That Thing Called Love !

Love,
What is it, a four-letter word?
****
That’s what it should be,
Or at least that’s what it ends to be
What is love?
It’s a golden rope,
Leading you to the ditches
To the darkest clutches of despair
You never knew existed
It’s a syndrome, a phobia as someone rightly put it
Which drives even the
Most sensible person insane! in a useless rag
It is a pain
A goddamn ****ing pain
Which starts up slowly, in some unknown corner
And then becomes worse than slicing your brains
It slices thru your heart,
Just one clean sweep
And you are done; for a lifetime
It’s a termite; a deadly vicious termite
Puncturing deep, inside you,
Eating away your delicious soft brains raw!
Manifesting deep empty tunnels
Not leaving even air to breathe into...
Vacuum is all there is left behind
You look inside yourself
And stare at the darkness, of the hollowing space
You search into the nothingness
And find it gone
Your soul!!
Your only self-claimed property
You look around
And then spot it in his hands
He was holding it now, carefully
Within the confines of his closed palms
He is tossing it now in the air,
Playing with it entertaining himself...
Juggling it around with a new one.
And finally dropping it; for the shiny new one...
There I see it now
Fallen into the slimy sticky mud
Trying to rise
Struggling to get out of the slime
Cursing the mess around
I can see it now
Tired, weak and dejected
It’s looking back at me; hopeless look
Accusing look
Why did you let this happen to me?

I want so much to console it
But how can I?
It’s my own heart after all
And it is lying shattered there,
Down in the ditches
Sinking in the slimy mud
Nobody’s to be blamed!
Only the heart and the brain
But there is nothing left of the two now
The heart is sliced clean
And the brain is being digested
In the termites juicy grinds.

 

So.
Next time you see a golden rope
Don’t get tempted
Patiently climb the steps...
To happiness...
It will be worth the sweat!

 

Shattered... A rape case

Shattered

Once again a tender leaf is plucked
Before it could bath in the morning dew
Again a tiny bud was crushed before it blossomed into a rose
Again the innocent butterfly was caught
Before tasting the nectar of life

She lies still, as a corpse, worse
Tied down to the hospital cot
Her eyes staring out in to some hollowness
Mouth shut, screaming out in deafening silence
Her ears deaf to the sounds of hell
All her senses succumbing to the death’s odor
Nothing awakes her form her trance
The cruel experience has shattered her brains
Now killing her within with unseen pains

Still, after all these years,
Even a tiny male whisper shatters her peace
She gets bound by hysterical fits
She trembles furiously like a zombie
Her horror struck eyes dancing madly in vain
Animal cries echo from her throat
She withers and shivers uncontrollably
Even long after the whisper has died away.

She lies still again
Just like that rag doll
Which had been shaken mercilessly
By some possessed child.
She lies still
Lifeless and soulless
Staring at the unseen and the unknown

After 30 yrs it’s still the same
She has lost her faith in humanity
And so have I

And after reading all this
To think that the person responsible
Had gotten away with such animal deed
Its disgusting, a sheer disgrace to humanity
Some one pays for someone’s insanity.