Your Smile

In this space after long...

I was so calm since a while
Floating in a space of
Sublime uncertainty..thats me.
And then..
you came along
Wove your words with mine.
Words not empty
Like the hollow church gongs
But loaded with promise

Like the fresh morning dew
Falling into my contained voids
Reaching and reaching
Into every little crevice
Almost touching the bottom
Of my hidden abyss..

Your words..
They lit up my gaurded inside
Sparking off the flame
Lying dormant for a while
They  lit up my gaurded inside
Like two perfect live wires tied.
Like some rusted levers
unpicked in a buried spot
Releasing the essence
That remained trapped inside..

And as if that wasn't lovely enough
To feel the blood rush through me again
There....
is your beaming smile.

Dis alarmingly alluring..
May be it's since your words lifted
Some dust off my sedated eyes
But gosh your smile...
Its sweetness had sneaked inside
like a cool winter breeze
Right within my heart's warmth
Starting like a cool mist
I felt the chill slowly soar
Like that quenching flow
Of fresh lemonade
On a parched up throat.

And then as if sensing
the ungaurded moment
It barged in claiming ground
Swinging my heart in a frenzy
Suddenly its become too wild
Like a hyper inconsolable child
The chill now replaced by a burning flame.

Unsure I shut the levers back ..tight..

Lets wait.. for the storm to pass i say
Wait.. till this wave dips away
For this smile is a mirage
It isn't here to stay...

Connection at Jahaz Mahal

This is how she must have felt
Walking under these high archways
Gazing at the manicured gardens
Many a sunrises and many a sunsets

Alone in waiting for her brave beloved
Immersed in preciousness
but forlone still...

This is how she must have felt

Her soft trinklet filled strolls
Echoing in the vaulted stones
Her muted longings despite having it all
This is how she must have felt

I felt her longing,in my magical moments
Resonating in the stones of Jahaz Mahal
Thirsty she was...admist the waters around.
This is how she must have felt....

I feel our souls resonate

Our desires establish a lost connect
Here i retrace her lonely steps
In another era...another age....

This is how i feel now....

Luiets lines....

No wonder is designed connection,
Lost but found in time transition

She is alone now
She was alone then
In d vastness of stone remains
Stretched hands and love eternal.

My Lover in Mandu

I hopped on with my back pack in tow
Nestling my self at the rear window
Knowing little what's in store
On this lovely morning of my tour

As i settle down i feel him around
Peering at me from the moving window
Here comes another damsel...
I sense him squeal in delightful glee

I huddle myself  in my thin sweatshirt
Hugging my bossom as i look him square
Amused he seems at my determination
Much to my embarrassment going about his ways..

Troubling me by his  naughty blows
Seeming to know his routine around
Precisely doing what he does with finesse
Teasing me lightly with his constant caress.

My Tiny goosebumps arise..
A dead give away of my vulnerable plight
I feel his cold fingers run down my spine
A gasp escaping my submissive mind

His tender cold flushes across my face
Forcing my lips to part... Ever so slight..
Ahhhh....I sigh..
Oblivious to surrounding prying eyes

He tugs at the hem of my neckline
Finding his way along .. Deftly
.. so fine.
I feel him caress d nape of my neck as he goes
All his playground my eager contours.

Nudging his way deeper
Like the gentle play of a naughty lover
He seems to love the esctasy
As he wraps me up in cold kissing fantasy


Ahhhh... U little devil of a breeze
You know exactly whom to tease...

Heal me

Tearing away the binding feelings
Shutting down my bleeding thoughts
Wrapping up tighly all that remained
Burying it deep in fathomless pots

Nailing my hands as they twitch to reach you
My bleary eyes shut as they yearn to weep
Not stopping the heart as it oozes the pain
Letting it drench through my soul as it seeps

Beckoning all your silences to embrace me
Goodwill of all my prayers to bail me
Peeling away all love at it chains me
Pleading strength in loneliness to hail me
..
oh pls heal me..

Cup of Coffee

Another quite evening
feet heavyy as they lead
A coffee on my tierd mind....
I settle in a forgotten corner
Of a lovely cheerful place
Awaiting none... at a table for two..
Eyes darting around the Cafe
Entwined hands under nearby tables
Meeting lips in tucked away corners....
Mischeif hangs around some loose curls
Playful smiles frame naughty eyes
As the Coffees cool off aside...
I feel an all familiar pang
A knowing feeling overwhelmes
And i feel them sting as they Come...
The empty chair across me teases
As i sip on quietly through rising vapours
Salted rim of my Cup of Coffee....

Fleeting Warmth

A pull to the edge
A knock on woven barrier
A wall not broken down
For a fear of self burial

A desire unsaid
From a feeling not unravelled
A stirring up of an ache
At the thoughts that travelled

We all get there at times
To such places forbidden
Where the heart makes a leap
But the mind stares bedridden

If only thoughts could be read
I am sure you would see
A part of my essence 
Lingers with you more than me

Its just the way now
It feels so lovely warm
Like one of ur aura
Has wrapped my soul in its arms

There are things right
Then there are things not wrong
And then there are some things
Best lived in through a song....

I dont wish to be a rainbow 
In your faraway hazy sky
But i wish to hold a warm hand
And watch d stars shooting by....

4 AM chaos

So its 4.45 am rite now and i havent taken a single wink.One of those spots in life where I am totally frozen, not sure where i wish to go anymore.I guess the anxiety of the  chaos which has gradually settled  itself comfortably within my life is now putting me on the edge.My mind is like thinking 100 things at a time, pondering at 50 and stopping at none... its a very unsettling feeling..where I m flying on the wings of a hugge butterfly , trying not to open my eyes, cos i might succumb to my fear of  flite itslf...Hoping the butterfly glides me smoothly to a beautiful place where butterflies are supposed to go.. But i m not thinking ... ofcourse it a butterfly .. its gonna just flutter mindlessly in the garden .. it has no where to reach in particular.. Can i afford to glide on its back with closed eyes forever?

Sumwhere i ve missed out on an important path .. sumwhere i crossed over a bridge without noticing the goodies awating underneath it for me...sumwhere sumthing has been missed out my heart says.

How did i end in this place,where i no longer know if i wish to go uphill or just lie low. I think i know the inabilities i have in me but how to fix them is the issue. Maybe i even know how to fix them one at a time.. but i lack the drive to do it...n its all flooding my life everywhere.

Prioritize Baby .. when therz till some time..