Waiting for you .. Again.

Last night felt scary long
As I blindly struggled along
Dreams of you, weak... Falling 
As I waited to hold you in my arms

And just as I slipped In a deeper sleep
You dropped further, beyond my reach
steadily falling in the black hollow
As I hovered above....I couldn't follow.

Bleary eyed, I woke up,already far 
Dragged myself under the shower
As I opened my mouth to call you out
Shunted Grief ripped up, voice died out

Piercing pain of my curdled screams
Salted waters and washed away dreams...
You had held your breath to hold my hand then...
So I am still hoping for you to hold it again.

Digitally yours

In the dead of the night
As a habit not yet undone
She unblocks him, yet again.

And in the silence that stretches
Into heavier moments,
Just stares at his screen name..

'So peaceful you look as you sleep'
She hears herself say
And next instance blocks him away.